to my fatty, i wish i could do something to make all your sadness disappear, just like how you used to make mine vanish by giving me a huge hug and one of your cheesy smiles. i would say more but this is not the place. just know, you mean more to me than you could ever imagine, and i love you so much that even the words make it look sort of cheap.
♥
to star, we don’t talk much anymore but that doesn’t mean i don’t love you still, with every shrivelling piece of my worthless heart. always and forever will never last long enough.
♥
to the boy who sat with me on a balcony at mignight in a country 10 000 miles away, who stayed up with me all night so i could selfishly pour my heart out to him on that freezing cold staircase, who hardly said a word even though he had his own problems to deal with- are there really any words which can describe what i want to say? this is coming out strange, and i wish i could phrase it better, but you’re one of the best friends i think i will ever find and god knows, i don’t deserve you at all.
♥
to my porn boy, further away than i could have ever imagined you but closer to me than you’ve ever been, i hope you’re doing well. i’m sorry i couldn’t be there for you when the best parts of your world seemed to come crashing down, but believe me, i know how hard it is. you’re such a fucking strong motherfucker, you know? i wish you knew that, sometimes. and you’re not a bad friend, no matter what you believe. you never have been.
♥
Sometimes we lose the chance to say what we really mean. The moment comes, but we’re either too scared, or too busy, or just not ready to say what we need to say. Some people spend their whole lives waiting to get a second chance, to tie up loose ends perhaps or even just let somebody know that they care. This entry has no double-meaning or hidden crpytic messages.. I just think I should say these things before it’s too late. You four know who you are.. And as insignificant or meaningless or strange as this may seem I hope you know you mean the world to me and always will, no matter what happens.
“but it won’t last man, just a passing moment gone”
somehow one seems so much more obvious than the others…
but i’m sure that every single one of these people loves you back, more than you can ever imagine. i know i do :D
:) :) :)
i love you more.
everyone says that nowadays, but just know that i mean it from the bottom of my heart. & besides, you can never kill bonds like the one we have.
& for the record, there’s no one else i’d rather have been stuck with in a crappy soviet room a thousand miles away from home. you made it amazing.
we’ll catch up soon. (:
love you too star <3
and that phrase “i don’t know who you are but i, i’m with you” its from a song or a poem or what?
its awesome really